Gain and Loss

This last year has been the hardest I think emotionally I have encountered in years. Not so Much physically but mentally and emotionally.

There has been great loss and great gain. I have learned some pretty hard lessons of boundaries with people. Lived through several tragedy's in this last year. I guess I should start at the beginning…

I will preface this by saying people often fear the things they don't understand. And that we often times choose to hear what we wish. That stinking flesh is always trying to control over the spiritual.

Nearly a year ago My oldest choose to live with her father. It was less than pleasant circumstances. But I also finally just asked God why this happened and to please show me HIS purpose in it. I don't want to be bitter or angry or numb even… It was a brutal situation that grieved my heart so much. I felt like my heart had been torn out and hoe was I to continue to do even just the basics. I just wanted to cancel all upcoming holidays and breathe again … Breathing is so hard at different stages in our lives.

Then a month after I lost a grandparent that I was close with and we decided to cash out some stock to go to the funeral as even more hard it was my father last parent gone… As his dad passed a year before. I never got to meet my grandfather.

 We decided to go ahead and all of us go… as the twins were under 2 they flew free… Gosh time fly's so fast! All my sib's were there. Though the spouses and kids were not all able to come.
Then shortly after that I was able to connect with my Grandma Jane… As the anniversary was passion got loosing my grandfather. Such an incredible gift and blessing in our lives!
I knew that we had a immediate and deep connection and got to hear all kinds of stories about my grandfather and who he was.
It did help ease the ache just a little of loosing my other grandmother. And being able to learn more about my history in our family. Then We were invited to go to Disney all expenses paid by Grandma Jane! I was so blown away I don't know how many times I cried. Years of sending cards and just reaching out in love … and it was all coming back in a huge amount …. As you can imagine the twins are ALL about Mickey and Minney Mouse! And though they were so little just 2! They remember!
Zoe had so much fun and got to do even more things with Brent and the other family there there ended up being 12 of us all together!

Time fly's by… life changes and states the same.

Well some of you may be wondering what happened as I feel off the face of the earth… so to speak.

About a year ago we had a huge family change that was very hard on our family and I chose to keep it very private so the people involved would not be hurt.
The short end of it is our teenage daughter decided to live with her father. Thankfully she is doing great so I hear.

After that we had many more changes… I had been so terribly sick for years and Dr's struggled to figure out how to help.
Mis diagnosis for Lupus, and all the things it could be… well lets just say they are all deadly.

In the end I decided to ignore all the crazy stuff going on and "CHOOSE" to move on. I prayed about it and really felt like God was telling me to make a change. To walk or leap in faith… I felt like God was telling me to decide if GOD was bigger and to completely trust in HIM and get off all the pain meds and other things. So I did! I have been off ALL my medication for about 5 months now! I had a hysterectomy in January, and even went on a family vacation to Disney to meet a Beloved Grandmother for the first time!

I am still doing my Mary Kay business and the last year I was able to give over 15 thousand dollars of product away to victims of human trafficking and at risk youth! Even help ladies who had been job hunting for a long time find a polished look to give them a boost of confidence!

I am building my team and going for Directorship and my car!! I am loving the leadership role and that I am growing so much.  I am a very busy mom of the 3 at home with being involved in school for Zoe, and the twins at 2 1/2 years old now. Being healed and no longer in bed nearly all the time! Well lets just say I am doing circles around Brent! LOL It is sure nice to feel well and to be able to invest more in my husband and the kids. I have been mentoring some single mom's and teaching a few how to cook even!
We are also going to a new church where we feel the incredible blessing of fitting in and being challenged at the same time! Living Hope Church with pastor Phil Steiger and Ryan.

I am loving the new challenges of the daily live and the incredible peace and joy that we have in this season after so much has happened.
Last week I went to a family birthday party for my sister and we just hung out and played games, ate food and let the kids hang out! That was like old times when I was a kid.

Over the years I have learned that when we get married things change in so many ways and it takes a deep love for our sib's and the spouses to love each other and encourage each other when we may not understand all that is going on in their lives.  Life is ever busy!

I even made some incredible life long friends this year! That was a huge blessing for me and still is. I know some people are in our life for seasons… but this time I have a few lifers!
Well HI from all of the Wichman family and we are so excited to give you this summery of what Gpod is doing in our life! May God bring you great blessing!
Kirstie